28th aPr miDnitE? MoRn? wAdeVa..

hMm.. hAiz~ rEaLLie ScReWeD uP dRaMa juZ nW.. mY miNd's a bLaNk n i juZ SoRta StoNe thRu out.. n WorSe StiLL twDs e eNd oF e rEhEarSaL iT StArtEd cLoSiNg ShoP.. n nW i hAftA WoRk wiF e ToOpiD Sci fAc dRaMa gUy.. thX aRhz.. ToOpiD.. n 2 tinK tt iNitiaLLy iT wAs aLriGht 4 mE 2 Go uP 2 e ContRoL rM.. How xCitiNg nW.. SiMpLy aNtiCipAting e nXt rEhEarSaL mAn.. *pHeW*

-27tH aPriL 2004-

hmpH! wEnt 4 hAir Cut yEstErdAe.. dEn e hAir StyLe i ChoSe n e ReSuLtaNt effEct iSnt rEaLLie e SaMe LehZ.. So iRritAtEd.. dEn e ToP pArt oF mY hAir LoOk So BoUncy.. n 2 tinK i did bAsic hAir tReAtmEnt 2.. bT mY dEaR hAiR doEsnt SeEmS wiLLinG 2 refLect e diFfEreNcE ( aSsuminG dErE ShLd b aNi iN e 1st pLacE) aRgh! LuCkiLy iTs nT beRi X.. eLsE i wiLL fEeL iRritAteD LaRz.. hMpH! y Lyt diS?! nW mY hAir fEeLs CoArsE, n LooKs thiCk n oVeR boUncy.. n dEnisE SaiD tt mY hAiR LoOks Lyt hEr mUm!! Lyt.. thX aRhz.. pEngZ.. iT bEtA gEt nicEr afTer it StArtS gRoWinG LoNgEr.. wA Lao.. mY hAiR.. *obSeRvEs a MoMenT oF SiLeNcE* "dEaR hAiR, mY bEstEst fReN, bEz LuVer, hUbbiE, bF n bitCh mAte ShaLL b gReAtLy miSseD... ..."

StAciE oRriCo – I pRoMisE

Will I always be there for you?
When you need someone, Will I be that one you need?
Will I do all my best to, to protect you?
When the tears get near your eyes
Will I be the one that's by your side?
Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your light?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will

Will I take tender care of you?
Take your darkest night and make it bright for you
Will I be there to make you strong and to lean on?
When this world has turned so cold
Will I be the one that's there to hold?

Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your light?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will

Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your light?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will

Yeah
And I love you more every day
And nothing will take that love away
When you need someone
I promise I'll be there for you (there for you)
I promise

Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your light?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will

And I promise (and I promise)
I promise (oh I promise you)
I will be there when you call me (when you call me)
I promise (I promise)
I promise I will

aNaStAciA - Left Outside Alone

All my life I’ve been waiting
For you to bring a fairy tale my way
Been living in a fantasy without meaning
It’s not okay I don’t feel safe

I don't feel safe..
Ohhh..

Left broken empty in despair
Wanna breath can’t find air
Thought you were sent from up above
But you and me never had love
So much more I have to say
Help me find a way

And I wonder if you know
How it really feels
To be left outside alone
When it’s cold out here
Well maybe you should know
Just how it feels
To be left outside alone
To be left outside alone

I tell ya..
All my life I’ve been waiting
For you to bring a fairytale my way
Been living in a fantasy without meaning
It’s not okay I don’t feel safe
I need to pray

Why do you play me like a game?
Always someone else to blame
Careless, helpless little man
Someday you might understand
There’s not much more to say
But I hope you find a way

Still I wonder if you know
How it really feels
To be left outside alone
When it’s cold out here
Well maybe you should know
Just how it feels
To be left outside alone
To be left outside alone

I tell ya..
All my life I’ve been waiting
For you to bring a fairytale my way
Been living in a fantasy without meaning
It’s not okay I don’t feel safe
I need to pray

Ohhh. Pray...
Ohh.. Heavenly father..
Save me.. Ohhhh..
Whoaooooaoooooo

And I wonder if you know
How it really feels
To be left outside alone
When it’s cold out here
Well maybe you should know
Just how it feels
To be left outside alone
To be left outside alone

All my life I’ve been waiting
For you to bring a fairytale my way
Been living in a fantasy without meaning
It’s not okay I don’t feel safe
I need to pray...

wOaH~!

wA hA hA hA~! i juZ hAppEnEd 2 rEaLiSed tt i'M iMagiNgiNg tinKs aLL thRu LaSt yR n diS yR.. NoboDy's iGnoRing mE juZ 2 Go wiF hEr cLz fReNz.. NoboDy pAnG Sey mE n eVeryTink.. eVeRytinK iTs juZ mY imagiNatioN n i'M So veRi VeRi SoRrie 4 tt.. iT juZ hAppEneD tt i'M pRoNe 2 haLLuciNaTioNs.. haLLuciAtiNg tt ppL LeaVe mE oUt oF tiNks n LiviNg mE iN aBsoLutE iGnoRanCe whiLe oThErs hAd grEaT pLans whiCh juZ hAppEneD 2 nT gEt 2 mE.. wAn 2 fEeL a SeNsE oF beLoNginG 2 e cLz? oF Coz.. eVeRyboDy wAns 2 Do tt.. i dun dEnY tt fAct.. yAhz oF coZ.. i duN wAn 2 beLong 2 e cLz.. i RathEr Go wiF SomeoNe i Tot i'M cLoSe 2 iNstEad oF mY cLzmAte.. n in e eNd?? u gEt LefT bEhiNd aGain.. iSnt iT aBit mEaN oF mE 2 get thoSe hALLuciNaTioNs? iTs nT aNiboDy's fAuLt.. iTs juZ miNe.. 4 i'M 2 sLoW 2 foLLoW uP e pAcE.. n iTs oSo mY fAuLt tt i hAppEn 2 b e ConfRontAtioNaL tYpE whErEaS oTheRs pRefEr 2 juZ SufFEr iN SiLeNcE n rEfuSe 2 SaE aNitiNk oUt iN e oPeN.. iN e EnD eVErYtiNk'S SoLvE n iTs a biG hAppIe fAmiLy.. oF coZ.. wAd cAn i SaE.. i hAf a biG MoUth i Lyt 2 ToKE.. n i Lyt 2 pin pT oTheRs fAuLts.. n thRu diS?? oF coZ i wiLL NoE wAd wEnt wRoNg n e fAuLts i mGt hAf.. iF i hAppEneD 2 diScoVer iT mySeLf iN e 1st pLacE..
afTeRaLL i'M a gReAt oBsErvEr.. 1 hU cAn rEaD miNds.. 1 hU cAn hoLd one SidEd ConvErSatiOns n gEt 2 e boTtom oF tinKs in diS wAy.. oF CoZ! wAd cAn i SaE?? i'M a gEniuS! e gReAteSt miNd rEadEr oF e cEntuRy.. Lyt LooK aT mOi !!

~17tH apR~

hMm.. bEeN rEaDinG a RathEr iNsPiriNg bK rEcEntLy.. " thE hSe tt jAcK buiLt " by cAthEriNe bArRy.. iTs aBt a WomAn's LiFe n HoW ShE wEnt thRu aLL e uPs n dWns.. n e StuFf ShE diD.. SouNds boRinG?? hmm.. tt'S coZ i duNo How 2 dEscRibE tt bK.. guEsS u wLd hAftA rEaD iT uRseLf 2 undErStaNd.. iTs inSpiRiNg iN e wAy tt iT tEachEs mE tt iT wLd nT Do 4 ppL 2 b SeLf-cEntrEd n tt iTs oKaYz 2 b LoSt SoMetiMes n tt Sometimes, iTs juZ nT uR fAuLt tt tinKs wEnt wRoNg n tt u duN hAftA fEeL guiLty oR Lyt a LosEr 4 tinKs aRnd u whiCh ConStantLy ScrEwed uP.. iT cLd b oTheR ppL's fAuLt iN tt thEir rEjEctiOn iS bAseD SoLeLy on thEmseLvEs n it hAd NutinK mUch 2 Do wiF u.. u juZ hAppEn 2 miT e wRoNg cRoWd.. hMm.. guEss i'M nT mAking muCh sEnSe.. itS juZ tt i duN rEaLLie noE eXactLy HoW 2 xpLain wAdeVa i'M fEeLiNg nW.. hMm..

ToOpiD gRaD baLL

aRgh! WadS wRong wiF eVeRyboDy??!! dEy eithEr duN wAn 2 Go foR e grAd baLL oR dEy RefusE 2 Go wiF e cLz.. So iRritAting!! i mEaN itS Lyt 4 gdnEsS SakE LaRz.. gRaD baLL LehZ.. n iT doEsnt eVeN cLAsh wiF e eXamS??!! SicKeninG!

aRgH! wAd e fReAkiNg heLL!!!

hMm.. 2dAe's gD fRi.. wAs SuPposEd 2 Go oUt iNitiaLLy.. bT SoMeboDy pAnG sEy mE.. 2 tinK i aLwAeZ cAnceL mY aPpoiNtmEnTs wEneVa wE R GoiNg oUt.. n 2 tiNk ShE aCtuaLLi ChoSe 2 Go ouT wiF SomeboDy eLsE n cAnceL oUr dAtE.. n ShE wAs e 1 hU aSk mE iF i wAntEd 2 Go out iN e 1st pLaCe LoRz.. wAd e heLL.. faNcY onLi aSkiNg mE out wEn NoboDy dAtE hEr oUt.. Lyt wAd e LaRz.. i'M onLi SomeoNe sHe wLd Go out wiF wEn NoboDy aSk hEr oUt iSsiT?? i'M juZ SoMe xtRa caLafarE LaRz? 4 gOoDneSs SaKe LaRz.. i hAf mY oWn SociaL LiFe n Life doEsnt juZ reVoLve aRnD u LoRz.. iTs nT e 1st tYm aLrEaDy LoRz.. oKayZ fiNe i mGt aLwAez b LatE bT aT LeAst i tuRn uP n DoeSnt cAnceL mY pRevioUs aPpoiNtmEntS jUz 2 Go ouT wiF mY cLz LaRz.. n! i duN cHoOse bEtWeEn e gRpS 2 Go oUt wiF.. i ChOoSe bY e dAteS i'M fReE~! gEt a LiFe LaRz 4 gDnEss SakE!!!

+xMs hM cuMiNg 04+

3rD apR, sAt wHiCh iS 2dAe iSh xM's hM cuMing dAe 04!! hAd LotSa fuN 2dAe wOaH! wEnT bAcK n sAw aLot oF mY 'Long LoSt' fReNz.. wAhahAa.. n e chAngEs iN Some oF mY juNioRs n frEnZ WeRe So aMaZinG! wOohOo~ dEn afTeR e hM cuMiNg, wEnT oUt wiF cAi LiNg n LiU yiN.. diN c cAi LiNg 4 So LoNg LiAoz.. (eRm.. Lyt 2 wkS+) itS rEaLLie bEeN a Long tYm SiNcE wE LaSt hAd a gAthEriNg.. n wE juZ FoUnd a pLaCE 2 Rot n StArtEd cHattiNg.. dEn wE oSo ToOk aLoT oF CutE piX!! n e pOsEs iN SomE oF thEm n e pLAcEs n tinKs wE TooK wErE So StuPid!! hAhaZz.. bT iT wAs fuN!! hAhaZz.. wAh!! miZ thEm mAn! LuV yA pEepS! Let'S chiLL oUt aNothEr tYm SooN!! *mUaCkS*! =P

~e aUditiOn 2dAe~

wOoHoO~ 2dAe wE hAd e aUditioN 2 rEcAst 4 e SoMe RoLeS.. dEn e rEsuLT wAs tt aiN gT e cReW bT hEr tiReSias wAs giVEn 2 haSif Coz ShE diN hAf eNuFf tYm 4 Both.. hAsiF wAs 2 pLaY heRmEs n tiReSiAs.. n~~~~~ giDeOn iS StiLL pLaYiNg oDySsEuS!! ToLd hiM hE cAn mK iT bT hE duN beLiEvE.. juZ tRy 2 PoLiSh uP oN uR wEaKnEsS n u cAn Do iT 1 LaRz! TooPid.. aNw.. yAhz.. dEn tt wAs wAd hAppEn 2dAe.. nW.. wE r onLi LeFt wiF aBt 5 wKs 2 sYf?? wOaH~ fAst~ So eXciTed aBt iT wOaH!~ hAhaZz..

~cCa bAzZAr~

wOoHoO~ 2dAe oUr ScH hAd cCa bAzZaR.. dEn wE wErE ScReAmiNg, pYsCho-iNg & DoIng wAdeVa wE cAn 2 attRaCt attEntiOn.. iN e eNd gT aBt 40 To 50 ppL? yAhz.. dEn dErEs 1 geR hU aSk mE a qN wHiCh i duNo 2 sAe DuMb oR TooPid.. e qN goEs, " iSsiT aLriGhT iF i juZ pArtiCipatE iN e bAck StagE duRing e SyF wiThOut joiNiNg dRaMa?" Lyt DuHz! Did ShE rEaLLie tiNk tt dErE r SucH gD tiNks in LifE?? DoTz LoRz.. aSking TooPid qNs LaRz.. n i wAs So Soo SooOOo eNtiReLy tuRn oFf bY hEr LaRz.. duMb.. bT oVeRaLL wAs QuiTe fuN LaRz.. n dEy fLaShEd e piX whiCh wAs taKeN thRu thEsE fEw wKs tt wE r pRePaRing 4 e oDySsEy!! So niCe!! aHh!! hAhAzZ.. tAtA~
-pEiZz-