28th aPr miDnitE? MoRn? wAdeVa..

hMm.. hAiz~ rEaLLie ScReWeD uP dRaMa juZ nW.. mY miNd's a bLaNk n i juZ SoRta StoNe thRu out.. n WorSe StiLL twDs e eNd oF e rEhEarSaL iT StArtEd cLoSiNg ShoP.. n nW i hAftA WoRk wiF e ToOpiD Sci fAc dRaMa gUy.. thX aRhz.. ToOpiD.. n 2 tinK tt iNitiaLLy iT wAs aLriGht 4 mE 2 Go uP 2 e ContRoL rM.. How xCitiNg nW.. SiMpLy aNtiCipAting e nXt rEhEarSaL mAn.. *pHeW*

-27tH aPriL 2004-

hmpH! wEnt 4 hAir Cut yEstErdAe.. dEn e hAir StyLe i ChoSe n e ReSuLtaNt effEct iSnt rEaLLie e SaMe LehZ.. So iRritAtEd.. dEn e ToP pArt oF mY hAir LoOk So BoUncy.. n 2 tinK i did bAsic hAir tReAtmEnt 2.. bT mY dEaR hAiR doEsnt SeEmS wiLLinG 2 refLect e diFfEreNcE ( aSsuminG dErE ShLd b aNi iN e 1st pLacE) aRgh! LuCkiLy iTs nT beRi X.. eLsE i wiLL fEeL iRritAteD LaRz.. hMpH! y Lyt diS?! nW mY hAir fEeLs CoArsE, n LooKs thiCk n oVeR boUncy.. n dEnisE SaiD tt mY hAiR LoOks Lyt hEr mUm!! Lyt.. thX aRhz.. pEngZ.. iT bEtA gEt nicEr afTer it StArtS gRoWinG LoNgEr.. wA Lao.. mY hAiR.. *obSeRvEs a MoMenT oF SiLeNcE* "dEaR hAiR, mY bEstEst fReN, bEz LuVer, hUbbiE, bF n bitCh mAte ShaLL b gReAtLy miSseD... ..."

StAciE oRriCo – I pRoMisE

Will I always be there for you?
When you need someone, Will I be that one you need?
Will I do all my best to, to protect you?
When the tears get near your eyes
Will I be the one that's by your side?
Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your light?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will

Will I take tender care of you?
Take your darkest night and make it bright for you
Will I be there to make you strong and to lean on?
When this world has turned so cold
Will I be the one that's there to hold?

Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your light?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will

Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your light?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will

Yeah
And I love you more every day
And nothing will take that love away
When you need someone
I promise I'll be there for you (there for you)
I promise

Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your light?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will

And I promise (and I promise)
I promise (oh I promise you)
I will be there when you call me (when you call me)
I promise (I promise)
I promise I will

aNaStAciA - Left Outside Alone

All my life I’ve been waiting
For you to bring a fairy tale my way
Been living in a fantasy without meaning
It’s not okay I don’t feel safe

I don't feel safe..
Ohhh..

Left broken empty in despair
Wanna breath can’t find air
Thought you were sent from up above
But you and me never had love
So much more I have to say
Help me find a way

And I wonder if you know
How it really feels
To be left outside alone
When it’s cold out here
Well maybe you should know
Just how it feels
To be left outside alone
To be left outside alone

I tell ya..
All my life I’ve been waiting
For you to bring a fairytale my way
Been living in a fantasy without meaning
It’s not okay I don’t feel safe
I need to pray

Why do you play me like a game?
Always someone else to blame
Careless, helpless little man
Someday you might understand
There’s not much more to say
But I hope you find a way

Still I wonder if you know
How it really feels
To be left outside alone
When it’s cold out here
Well maybe you should know
Just how it feels
To be left outside alone
To be left outside alone

I tell ya..
All my life I’ve been waiting
For you to bring a fairytale my way
Been living in a fantasy without meaning
It’s not okay I don’t feel safe
I need to pray

Ohhh. Pray...
Ohh.. Heavenly father..
Save me.. Ohhhh..
Whoaooooaoooooo

And I wonder if you know
How it really feels
To be left outside alone
When it’s cold out here
Well maybe you should know
Just how it feels
To be left outside alone
To be left outside alone

All my life I’ve been waiting
For you to bring a fairytale my way
Been living in a fantasy without meaning
It’s not okay I don’t feel safe
I need to pray...

wOaH~!

wA hA hA hA~! i juZ hAppEnEd 2 rEaLiSed tt i'M iMagiNgiNg tinKs aLL thRu LaSt yR n diS yR.. NoboDy's iGnoRing mE juZ 2 Go wiF hEr cLz fReNz.. NoboDy pAnG Sey mE n eVeryTink.. eVeRytinK iTs juZ mY imagiNatioN n i'M So veRi VeRi SoRrie 4 tt.. iT juZ hAppEneD tt i'M pRoNe 2 haLLuciNaTioNs.. haLLuciAtiNg tt ppL LeaVe mE oUt oF tiNks n LiviNg mE iN aBsoLutE iGnoRanCe whiLe oThErs hAd grEaT pLans whiCh juZ hAppEneD 2 nT gEt 2 mE.. wAn 2 fEeL a SeNsE oF beLoNginG 2 e cLz? oF Coz.. eVeRyboDy wAns 2 Do tt.. i dun dEnY tt fAct.. yAhz oF coZ.. i duN wAn 2 beLong 2 e cLz.. i RathEr Go wiF SomeoNe i Tot i'M cLoSe 2 iNstEad oF mY cLzmAte.. n in e eNd?? u gEt LefT bEhiNd aGain.. iSnt iT aBit mEaN oF mE 2 get thoSe hALLuciNaTioNs? iTs nT aNiboDy's fAuLt.. iTs juZ miNe.. 4 i'M 2 sLoW 2 foLLoW uP e pAcE.. n iTs oSo mY fAuLt tt i hAppEn 2 b e ConfRontAtioNaL tYpE whErEaS oTheRs pRefEr 2 juZ SufFEr iN SiLeNcE n rEfuSe 2 SaE aNitiNk oUt iN e oPeN.. iN e EnD eVErYtiNk'S SoLvE n iTs a biG hAppIe fAmiLy.. oF coZ.. wAd cAn i SaE.. i hAf a biG MoUth i Lyt 2 ToKE.. n i Lyt 2 pin pT oTheRs fAuLts.. n thRu diS?? oF coZ i wiLL NoE wAd wEnt wRoNg n e fAuLts i mGt hAf.. iF i hAppEneD 2 diScoVer iT mySeLf iN e 1st pLacE..
afTeRaLL i'M a gReAt oBsErvEr.. 1 hU cAn rEaD miNds.. 1 hU cAn hoLd one SidEd ConvErSatiOns n gEt 2 e boTtom oF tinKs in diS wAy.. oF CoZ! wAd cAn i SaE?? i'M a gEniuS! e gReAteSt miNd rEadEr oF e cEntuRy.. Lyt LooK aT mOi !!

~17tH apR~

hMm.. bEeN rEaDinG a RathEr iNsPiriNg bK rEcEntLy.. " thE hSe tt jAcK buiLt " by cAthEriNe bArRy.. iTs aBt a WomAn's LiFe n HoW ShE wEnt thRu aLL e uPs n dWns.. n e StuFf ShE diD.. SouNds boRinG?? hmm.. tt'S coZ i duNo How 2 dEscRibE tt bK.. guEsS u wLd hAftA rEaD iT uRseLf 2 undErStaNd.. iTs inSpiRiNg iN e wAy tt iT tEachEs mE tt iT wLd nT Do 4 ppL 2 b SeLf-cEntrEd n tt iTs oKaYz 2 b LoSt SoMetiMes n tt Sometimes, iTs juZ nT uR fAuLt tt tinKs wEnt wRoNg n tt u duN hAftA fEeL guiLty oR Lyt a LosEr 4 tinKs aRnd u whiCh ConStantLy ScrEwed uP.. iT cLd b oTheR ppL's fAuLt iN tt thEir rEjEctiOn iS bAseD SoLeLy on thEmseLvEs n it hAd NutinK mUch 2 Do wiF u.. u juZ hAppEn 2 miT e wRoNg cRoWd.. hMm.. guEss i'M nT mAking muCh sEnSe.. itS juZ tt i duN rEaLLie noE eXactLy HoW 2 xpLain wAdeVa i'M fEeLiNg nW.. hMm..

ToOpiD gRaD baLL

aRgh! WadS wRong wiF eVeRyboDy??!! dEy eithEr duN wAn 2 Go foR e grAd baLL oR dEy RefusE 2 Go wiF e cLz.. So iRritAting!! i mEaN itS Lyt 4 gdnEsS SakE LaRz.. gRaD baLL LehZ.. n iT doEsnt eVeN cLAsh wiF e eXamS??!! SicKeninG!

aRgH! wAd e fReAkiNg heLL!!!

hMm.. 2dAe's gD fRi.. wAs SuPposEd 2 Go oUt iNitiaLLy.. bT SoMeboDy pAnG sEy mE.. 2 tinK i aLwAeZ cAnceL mY aPpoiNtmEnTs wEneVa wE R GoiNg oUt.. n 2 tiNk ShE aCtuaLLi ChoSe 2 Go ouT wiF SomeboDy eLsE n cAnceL oUr dAtE.. n ShE wAs e 1 hU aSk mE iF i wAntEd 2 Go out iN e 1st pLaCe LoRz.. wAd e heLL.. faNcY onLi aSkiNg mE out wEn NoboDy dAtE hEr oUt.. Lyt wAd e LaRz.. i'M onLi SomeoNe sHe wLd Go out wiF wEn NoboDy aSk hEr oUt iSsiT?? i'M juZ SoMe xtRa caLafarE LaRz? 4 gOoDneSs SaKe LaRz.. i hAf mY oWn SociaL LiFe n Life doEsnt juZ reVoLve aRnD u LoRz.. iTs nT e 1st tYm aLrEaDy LoRz.. oKayZ fiNe i mGt aLwAez b LatE bT aT LeAst i tuRn uP n DoeSnt cAnceL mY pRevioUs aPpoiNtmEntS jUz 2 Go ouT wiF mY cLz LaRz.. n! i duN cHoOse bEtWeEn e gRpS 2 Go oUt wiF.. i ChOoSe bY e dAteS i'M fReE~! gEt a LiFe LaRz 4 gDnEss SakE!!!

+xMs hM cuMiNg 04+

3rD apR, sAt wHiCh iS 2dAe iSh xM's hM cuMing dAe 04!! hAd LotSa fuN 2dAe wOaH! wEnT bAcK n sAw aLot oF mY 'Long LoSt' fReNz.. wAhahAa.. n e chAngEs iN Some oF mY juNioRs n frEnZ WeRe So aMaZinG! wOohOo~ dEn afTeR e hM cuMiNg, wEnT oUt wiF cAi LiNg n LiU yiN.. diN c cAi LiNg 4 So LoNg LiAoz.. (eRm.. Lyt 2 wkS+) itS rEaLLie bEeN a Long tYm SiNcE wE LaSt hAd a gAthEriNg.. n wE juZ FoUnd a pLaCE 2 Rot n StArtEd cHattiNg.. dEn wE oSo ToOk aLoT oF CutE piX!! n e pOsEs iN SomE oF thEm n e pLAcEs n tinKs wE TooK wErE So StuPid!! hAhaZz.. bT iT wAs fuN!! hAhaZz.. wAh!! miZ thEm mAn! LuV yA pEepS! Let'S chiLL oUt aNothEr tYm SooN!! *mUaCkS*! =P

~e aUditiOn 2dAe~

wOoHoO~ 2dAe wE hAd e aUditioN 2 rEcAst 4 e SoMe RoLeS.. dEn e rEsuLT wAs tt aiN gT e cReW bT hEr tiReSias wAs giVEn 2 haSif Coz ShE diN hAf eNuFf tYm 4 Both.. hAsiF wAs 2 pLaY heRmEs n tiReSiAs.. n~~~~~ giDeOn iS StiLL pLaYiNg oDySsEuS!! ToLd hiM hE cAn mK iT bT hE duN beLiEvE.. juZ tRy 2 PoLiSh uP oN uR wEaKnEsS n u cAn Do iT 1 LaRz! TooPid.. aNw.. yAhz.. dEn tt wAs wAd hAppEn 2dAe.. nW.. wE r onLi LeFt wiF aBt 5 wKs 2 sYf?? wOaH~ fAst~ So eXciTed aBt iT wOaH!~ hAhaZz..

~cCa bAzZAr~

wOoHoO~ 2dAe oUr ScH hAd cCa bAzZaR.. dEn wE wErE ScReAmiNg, pYsCho-iNg & DoIng wAdeVa wE cAn 2 attRaCt attEntiOn.. iN e eNd gT aBt 40 To 50 ppL? yAhz.. dEn dErEs 1 geR hU aSk mE a qN wHiCh i duNo 2 sAe DuMb oR TooPid.. e qN goEs, " iSsiT aLriGhT iF i juZ pArtiCipatE iN e bAck StagE duRing e SyF wiThOut joiNiNg dRaMa?" Lyt DuHz! Did ShE rEaLLie tiNk tt dErE r SucH gD tiNks in LifE?? DoTz LoRz.. aSking TooPid qNs LaRz.. n i wAs So Soo SooOOo eNtiReLy tuRn oFf bY hEr LaRz.. duMb.. bT oVeRaLL wAs QuiTe fuN LaRz.. n dEy fLaShEd e piX whiCh wAs taKeN thRu thEsE fEw wKs tt wE r pRePaRing 4 e oDySsEy!! So niCe!! aHh!! hAhAzZ.. tAtA~
-pEiZz-

*~*~*Qu0+3 oF e Da3~*~*~

LiFe iS aLL aBT ChoiCeS.. wEn u CuT aWAy aLL e jUnk, eVeRy SituAtiOn iS a ChoiCE.. u ChOoSe How u rEAct 2 SiTuatiOns.. u ChoOsE How ppL aFfEct uR MoOd.. u ChOoSe 2 b iN a gD MoOd oR bAd MoOd~

oH mAn!

2dAE aLrEadi SuN.. tmL hAftA Go bAcK 2 ScH afTer 4 dAez oF bReAk.. wAs juZ StArtiNg 2 eNjoY mY hoL LoRz.. iRritAtiNg.. n aS uSuaL.. i hAbEn fiN mY hw.. StiLL gT eCoNs n GP eSsAy, mAths TuT.. gReAt! tmL GoNnA gEt a bLaSting fRm mY mAths tEaChEr.. n e woRsT tiNk?! i hAbEn eVeN SubmittEd e pReVioUs mAths TuT!! hAIz~ HoW Sad cAn mY LiFE b.. hMpH! rEaLLie hAftA StArT mUggIng! "ReSoLutioN oF e mTh : gRaB eVeRy aVAiLabLE oPpOrtuNity 2 mUg SiNcE i'M So pRoNe 2 sLaCkiNg.." gEeKy tRaNsfoRmAtioN pHaSe 2 aCtiVatEd! yEaH! i LuRvE StuDyiNg!!!!! o_O"'

qUoTe oF e MoRn o_0'''

wE cNot teL wAD mAy hAppEn 2 uS iN e StRanGe medLeY oF LiFe.. bT wE cAn dEciDe wAd hAppEns iN uS.. HoW 1 cAn tK it , wAd wE Do wiF iT, & tt'S wAd rEaLLie COuNts iN e eNd.. How 2 tK e Sad StuFf oF LiFe & mK iT a tiNg oF woRth n bEauTy.. tt's e TeSt oF LiViNg.. hMmZz..

oH No!!

woKe uP LaTe 2dAe n hAf bEeN sLaCkiNG thRu oUt e dAe.. ScH StArts oN Mon afTeR 4 dAez oF bReAk.. hAviNg pLayEd thRu mAjoRity oF e tYm.. duN fEeL Lyt RetuRniNg 2 Sch aNiMoRe.. n! i hAbEn fiN mY hW SoMemoRe.. n thoSe r hoL hW givEn a wK b4 oUr bLoCk tEstS.. eCoNs n Gp eSsAy.. MatHs p7,p8,n 2003.. XiAnZ.. cAn LiFe gEt aNiMoRe eNtErtAiNinG? -pEiZz-

.:CoNtd oN PPP:.

oH btW! e PPP's thEmE iSh RetRO! CooL RitE?! hAhaZz.. dEn eVeRyboDy wAs Lyt eiThEr dReSseD iN SupEr bRighT CoLoRs, poLkA DoTs oR bIg eAr RiNgS!!! hAhaZz.. ShLd hAf LooK aT e piX wE ToOk! So CooL! hAhaZz..

~pOst pRoDuCtiOn pArTeE~

wOoHOo!~ 2dAe wE hAd e PoSt pRdUctiOn pArtEe aT aPeX ToWeR iN tAjOng pAgaR.. aT 1sT wE wErE wOndErIng wHeRe iS tt pLaCe.. dEn wEn wE fiNaLLy rEacHed.. gUeSs wAd??!! iTs mR ToNg's aH GoNg's bLdg.. yEs uR RitE! e 1 wE boRroWeD e ShEeP SkiN, e mAgnUm n e siLvEr gobLeTS 4 oUr pRodUctiOn fRm.. hiS aH GoNg iS Lyt SoOooOOoo RiCh LoRz.. Lyt SiMpLy SooOoOO RiCh?? hiS WhoLe ShoP iS FuLL oF aNtiQueS fRm aLL ovEr e worLd n iTs nT juZ a ShoP oN 1 LeveL.. iTs oN a FEW LeveLS! n! iTs jUz hiS CoLLection.. nT 4 SaLe! wOaH! aNwz.. wE wEnT dErE n hAd oUr PPP dErE.. e FooD e tEacHerS cAterEd wAs gReAt.. eSpEciaLLy e tAkoyaKi baLLs ( mEaT baLLs).. e SaUcE iS Lyt oOhhh~ n e fRuiT PuNcH oSo tAstEs gReAt! iN aNothEr WorDs, eVeRytiNk wAs gReAt! dEn aS uSuaL, wE StArtEd tAkIng piX.. n 2 teL yA e tRuth, i tiNk dRaMa pEepS r rEaLLie n i mEaN rEaLLie pHoTogEnic.. n fuLL oF cRaZy iDEaS n iNspiRatioNs 2 tK piX.. iTs Lyt juZ giF uS a diGi cAm n Some StanDing pLacEs n wE cAn fiLL uP e eNtiRe aLbUm.. hAhaZz.. bT! iTs fuN! n wE RoX! TooK mAni CutE piX 2dAe! n dEy wErE So niCe! Coz i'M pHoTogEnic! hAhaZz.. hMm.. diS pRoDucTioN rEaLLie bOnDeD uS mAn.. wiThOut iT.. i guEsS i wLd StiLL b hAtiNg dRaMa mitiNgS n e WhoLe cLub wLd juZ b fiLLed wiF StRangErS ShaRiNg e SaMe mEmbeRshiP.. rEaLLie thAnkFuL tt wE gT diS chAncE maN~ wOoHoO!~ >_<

~oOh~

oKaYz.. Let mE c.. wEnT mUggIng wiF mY sEc Sch bUddiEs (Ly,Sx,pN) eArLieR aT oUr uSuaL StuDyiNg hAngoUt.. duE 2 bEinG PoSteD 2 diFfErEnt Sch, cLz eTc.. wE cLdnT hAnG oUt TogEthEr aS mUcH CoMpArEd 2 b4.. bT~ wEn wE Do gEt toGethEr, e fEeLinG iS gd!~ aS uSuaL, wE ToOk SoMe tYm 2 SettLe dWn, dEn wEn wE fiNaLLy SettLe dWn n wErE abLe 2 CoNcEntRatE n StaRt StuDyiNg, wE wLd eiTheR b: (a)huNgRi (b)nEeDiNg a viSiTatioN 2 e Loo (c)dErEs onLi a ShoRt tYm LeFt b4 wE StaRt bAck hM.. n So e 4 oF uS wEnT 2 e nEarEsT pEtRoL StatiOn 2 bUy FooD n Do wAdeVa biZ wE Lyt.. dEn wE wEnt bAck 2 e pLacE 2 StuDy.. dEn~ pN SuddEnLy ToT oF e chaLeT wE hAd in sEc 2.. n wiF tt, iT StArtEd a RusH oF mEmoRieS bAcK iNto oUr hEaDs.. wE eNdEd uP toKiNg n LauGhing aT e TooPiDs tinKs wE uSeD 2 Do.. Lyt HoW wE aLwAeZ wErE kiCkinG Sth aRnd e cLz b iT SoFt tOys oR baLL oR BottLes, n HoW oUr cHeEriNg n jEeriNg wHiLe pLaYiNg diStuRbeD e ReSt oF e cLz, e tYm wEn cL n Sx cRoSs- dReSs, n e tYm wEn onLi e 4 oF uS wErE LefT iN e cLz n HoW wE LAuGh tiLL wE pEngZ Lyt oVeR NutinK mUcH tt tYm.. wE wErE juZ siMpLy rEmiNciSiNg aBt e gD oLd FoNd mEmoRieS.. iT wAs onLi dEn diD i rEaLisE tt i aM aCtuaLLi miSsiNg mY sEc Sch dAeZ So mUcH n tt eAcH oF uS hAs rEaLLie gRoWn uP iN oUr oWn wAys wiThiN thiS 1 yR+.. hMm..

entRy 1---> StaRt! gO gO!

WoOhOo~ hErE i cuM~ nUtiNk 2 Do nW.. So StaRteD DoiNg diS tinK.. eRmz.. gUeSs bY nW u gUyz cAn c eXactLy HoW boRed i m RitE? hMm.. wAhaHahA.. aNw.. 2 gEt u eNtErtAin, i ShaLL StaRt fiLLiNg u uP oN oUr beRi oWn eL dRaMa cLuB's pLaY!! nYeDc's dRaMa Nite, e oDsSeY, wAs oN 13th mAr, Sat.. hMm.. e daE b4 wE hAd a aBsoLuteLy mArveLLoUs fuLL dReSs RehEarSaL.. iT wAs e bEz eVa mAn! ThoUgh tiX SaLe wAsnT tt gReAt iNitiaLLy, wE kPt our MoRaLes hiGh thRu SeLf eNteRtaiNmEnt n SeLf MotiVatIon.. aWw~~ bT~ bT~ iT wAsnT tt bAd aFtEraLL.. e mAtiNeE ShoW wAs nutiNk 2 b pRoUd oF.. e aUdi wAs onLi Lyt wAd?! haLf oR LeSsEr fiLLed?! HoWeVa, e eVeNinG ShoW wAs aWeSoMe!! e pErfoRmAncE iS gReAt n wE fiNaLLy n i mEaN fiNaLLy hAd a nOrMaL aUdiEncE! tHeiR ReActiOn wAs NoRmaL n gReAt! ContRadiCtiNg? e mAtinEe's ShOw's aUdiEncE wAs rEaLLie dEaD n dEy wEreNt oR diN dArE 2 LauGh aT wAd wAs SuPpoSed 2 b faRniE.. whErEaS e eVeniNg ShoW auDiEncE cHeEr, aPpLaUdEd, LAuGh u nAmE iT.. iT rEaLLie BooSted oUr MoRaLes wEn wE SaW thEm.. nW u gEt wAd i mEaN wEn i SaE NoRmaL? n e bEz tiNk???!! e aUdi wAs aLmoSt fuLL cEpt 4 e fRt fEw RoWs aT e SidEs.. n! wE diN giF oUt tiX! aLL wErE bEinG PURCHASED! iSnT tt aWeSoMe??! hMm.. oKaYz ShaLL eNd hErE.. aT LeAst 4 e PaRt oN e oDySsEy~